Happy Thursday Glam Squad! In lieu of Monday's One Year Blogiversary celebration, I thought it was the perfect time to share with you the personal side of my journey over this past year. The part of my journey that does not involve fashion or outfits or shopping, it's the true reason why Good Girl Gone Glam and all of you have been such an amazing and important part of my life.
Right before Good Girl Gone Glam was born, my husband and I were in the midst of trying to conceive our first child. We had been trying since 2012 and in 2013 we decided to seek assistance from a fertility specialist after many unsuccessful months of trying on our own. If you have not had difficulties conceiving, the first thing I want you to do is thank God (or who ever you pray to) that you were blessed with the ability to conceive naturally. It is a greater gift than you know.
Over the many months of negative pregnancy tests, trips back and forth to the doctor, being poked and prodded, and undergoing unsuccessful fertility treatments, I noticed that I was slowly sinking into a black hole. I stopped going to the gym, caring what I looked like, I was stressed out to the max, and I knew I was losing that twinkle in my eye. Basically, turning into someone that I didn't recognize or want to be. When I seemed to be standing on the edge of the proverbial "cliff", I decided to take my situation into my own hands before I was past the point of no return. I was not going to let this situation ruin me. I had WAY too many positive things going on in my life to let this struggle define who I was.
I knew it was time for a distraction. Counting the days between treatment and pregnancy tests (which was14 long ass days) was taking over my brain month after month and getting pregnant was all that consumed my mind. So, I knew it was time to do something I had wanted to do for many years but never had the guts- start a fashion blog. It was the first time in my life when the thought of starting a blog wasn't followed by one ounce of reservation in my mind. It was time to jump in and throw all caution to the wind! Boy, was I glad that I did!
Good Girl Gone Glam was the best distraction I could have asked for. I was tapping into my love of fashion, meeting amazing people, being inspired and supported by all of you on a daily basis. Before I knew it, that 14 days between treatment and pregnancy test was no longer a countdown. I was too busy with positive thoughts and didn't have time to think about what may or may not happen or the potential disappointment to follow.
In March of last year, I also started participating in the #100 Happy Days movement on Instagram. (Click here). This activity encouraged me to find at least one positive thing in my day, proving that even when having a bad day/week/month/year, there were positive things all around me, I just had to take a step back and notice them. If you go on Instagram and look up the hashtag "Glam girl gets happy" you can see my 100 days of pictures.
There is (as you know) a very happy ending to this story. My husband and I are expecting our first child at the end of May and we could not be happier. These two years were very trying and emotional for the both of us, but we ended this journey stronger individually as well as a couple. I do not know what I would do without my sweet, amazing, thoughtful, and supportive husband as he was my rock and was by my side always reminding me that I wasn't alone in this journey. We are also very lucky to have amazing family and friends who were there for us throughout this time, crying with us, smiling with us, cheering us on, and celebrating with us when we shared our good news.
I also owe a huge thank you to all of you, my Glaminators. Your sweet words, comments, inspiration, friendship, and blog-love helped me get through the days when all I felt like doing was crying. You have all done more for me than you will ever know. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
I knew this was something I wanted to share because I know there are so many woman out there going through this issue or know someone who is. As woman, we have to support each other and no one should be ashamed of their struggles with infertility. I came across an article of (8 things you should never say to someone struggling with infertility) that is a great read and very helpful when giving support to someone who is dealing with fertility issues. (To read click here.)
Thank you for taking the time to read this. It took a lot of courage to share this with you but I am proud of where I have been and where I am going and it is important for woman out there to know they aren't alone in their struggles. No matter how dark the tunnel, there is always a light at the end.
Much love to all of you!